This is where I put the teeth-bared, wide-eyed emoji that impossibly, yet simply says, "Yes. An adult temper tantrum. Whoops." 

This is also the emoji used in certain cases such as: 

• I just overreacted to my children being children
• I accidentally put salt instead of sugar in my coffee
• I just found a mysterious pile of poop on the kitchen floor (full disclosure: we're in the midst of potty-training the two year old. Poop is on the brain)
• I totally called her by the wrong name at the grocery store

You get the point. And I know you know exactly the sentiment I'm expressing here.

After hearing some not so great news last night, it had all come to a head. I fell the other day, so I'm recovering from an unexpected back and elbow injury. My mom broke her wrist and now has to have surgery next week. We have family coming in town this weekend, and I can't get ahead of the laundry/dusting/vacuuming/POOP situation. I've promised a girl's day with my sweetest girl, and all I want is to curl up with a book or a computer or my Bible and NOT. MOVE. So I may have had a temper tantrum last night. I cried and expressed my frustration while the husband lovingly patted my back and let me do just that. Sitting on my back porch this morning, as the gray dawn crept over our tree-filled yard, I was reminded of the newness each day brings. In the darkness of night amidst the weariness of a long, emotion-filled day, these new mercies we're given on a daily and even moment-to-moment basis are hard to grasp. But as the light slowly comes but then shines all at once, we're given a new perspective, a chance to begin again.

Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23 NIV

Which brings me to my point: have a tantrum. Lean on a trusted husband or friend or cousin. Whomever it is, however you must lean, whether in person or on face time. Do it. Express your fears, and your frustrations. But the next morning recognize the day for what it is: a chance to re-evaluate, make a plan, and push forward. Say 'yes,' to the people in front of you, regardless of their size, and do the next right thing reflecting obedience to God in that moment. His love for us never ends. He is merciful at all times, forgives us as we repent of our tantrum-y ways. The darkness of night feels all-consuming, but the newness of morning refreshes us, replenishing our soul, and gives us hope in the Lord to carry out our day.